IM scared.HELP

[mash]

Im playing awaiting game at the moment . an old friend is dying in a hospice. hes very close to the end and out of pain but still here if you know what imean. iv been receiving updates regularly but its torture, it so reminds me of quitting smoking. that stuck in limbo just before you take the plunge. anyway thats where i am and its horrible and the thought of smoking is very strong. anything to take my mind off it but nothing will. smoking wont change a thing, iv just got to sit this one out there is no escape. I needed to say this and need your support to stay with this quit ,
Mash

[lillie]

I know this is horrible but put an image in your mind of yourself waiting to die because you started smoking again. Think of your family and friends being where you are now and wondering why you killed yourself by smoking when you had worked so hard to give it up.

YOU keep strong mash

Remember the strength that got you this far and draw upon it now.

I will be watching this site all day now so tell me you wont have one and tonight tell me you succeeded today.

Lillie xx

[una-g]

Sorry for your grief Mash, Don't think anything I can say can make things any better but well done for not smoking your way out of a bad place. I pray your friend stays pain free and peaceful. Stay strong x

[dorset123]

mash

this is horrible, but I know you can get through this difficult time.

Stay strong and think of the reasons why you wanted to stop, maybe
read the first posts you made on here.

((((( hugs )))))

[mash]

thanks Lillie its just good to know that people know where im at , i so do not want to lose this quit, and i just realized my friend John wouldnt want me to either, im gonna hold on to this. Thanks again Lillie a big hug to you.
Mash x

[lillie]

Im thinking of your pain Mash, but you and I both know that smoking wont make things any better.

Just imagine Im standing behind you, watching you, making you feel guilty for even thinking about having one. I am the other voice on your shoulder telling you that you dont need one.

Im catholic Mash, I cant go to mass at the moment as I cant drive but my parents will be there, I will ask them to offer up a prayer for your friend to make his passage a good one.

Thinking about you and hoping that strength keeps you going.

Lillie xx

Mash I'm so sorry to hear that. Losing two friends in such a short space of time makes us question things. Yes your friend would definitely want you to protect your quit. Losing those close to us is emotionally draining and I hope you find the strength to come through.

If you do feel tempted remind yourself how much John would give for more time. You have that time so choose to live it.

Thinking of you x x x x

[Mrs T]

Originally Posted by mash

i so do not want to lose this quit, and i just realized my friend John wouldnt want me to either, im gonna hold on to this.

Hi Mash

I know that you have lost quits before and regretted it very quickly. You know that smoking will neither help you or your friend.

You also know from experience that those early days of the quit are the worst - how many times do you really want to go through that? You really have enough on your plate without adding that problem to things as well.

Keep posting on here all day and all night if necessary. Find other things to distract yourself. Anything but smoking, because you know how you will feel straight afterwards. Be good to yourself this time Mash.

[mash]

He definately would love more time. im not going to smoke even if it is the archetypal smoking situation even non smokers smoke when things r like this. im just taking it as it comes , just been for a walk and feel different already. knowing that my fellow quitters are here for me is a huge help. big hugs to all of you...John has cancer that is caused by asbestos, never smoked in his life,very healthy guy, lovely person. i think it would be wrong of me to smoke and knowingly threaten my health, especially now my lungs are turning pink.
mash x

[Sea]

so sorry to hear your friend is not well mash. i can't fathom how hard it must be for you right now. i don't even really know what to say in moments like that, the emotions are running high, but i'll venture with my deepest and earnest sympathies, hoping not sound cliche...just condolences, just that... i'm sorry my imagination stops here.. i guess what i'm also trying to say is that please stay strong, regarding everything..which in turn shall help you not to start smoking again.. and in turn will help your friend.

HUGS,
sea